One of the biggest side effects, I believe, of the global pandemic (besides the obvious) has been a struggle with mental health care. These unprecedented times are hard. It’s hard because it’s stressful, overwhelming, and downright exhausting. Not having the freedom to do normal day-to-day activities without thinking about the public health consequences and literally isolating ourselves has taken such a toll on everyone. It’s been two years in the making and it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt so frustrated, angry, sad, and numb than I have for the last few years. I genuinely don’t remember what it’s like to be at peace and happy with my life. There definitely are moments where I am enjoying my time and the people around me but honestly, it’s not enough. Part of the struggle for me has been the job hunt. I have been worried about my career before I even graduated from college. Being someone who needs permission from the government to work has been the biggest obstacle in my career before it even began. Now that I have it, I’m feeling frustrated that I haven’t been hearing back from the millions of applications I’ve sent out into the void. With that said, I know in time I’ll find the job that’s right for me and that there is an employer who will see my value and give me the opportunity I deserve. I just have to keep at it and be patient.
So, to anyone else out there who finds this post: I hope you feel better knowing you’re not alone. The job hunt struggle is hard no matter how long you’ve been working at it. Searching for jobs during this time especially is hard work. Just know that you are worthy, qualified, and wanted. Most important of all, take care of yourself. You can’t be your best self if you don’t take care of yourself.